Friday, June 29, 2012

Top Ten Things You Should Know About Me :)


I have been feeling the need to write this for a long time, but I am just now having the guts to actually put it down in words (I just sound like such a crazy person when it’s all put into one place!!).  I have a lot of issues, and I know it, I guess I just want other people to be able to understand some of my eccentricities so they don’t get the wrong idea about me… Or maybe the wrong idea is better than the truth... I don't know!
    
     Anyway, here are the top ten things I think everyone should know about me:
  1. I am a quiet person in general.  One of my closest friends thought I was a snob when she first met me, because I’m quiet.  Numerous people have thought I hate them... because I’m quiet.  I don't make friends easily because I'm just too quiet.  Usually the quietness stems from the fact that I’m tired and my brain doesn’t form usable sentences when I lack energy.  The rest of the time I just don’t know what to say.  I’m not great at conversation, but I love to listen and be supportive, with whatever problems or ideas you want to send my way.
  2. I am not a morning person and I really like my sleep.  Wake me at your own peril, lol!  No matter how fun the activity, I probably won’t want to be involved if it means being up and about before ten in the morning. 
  3.  I like making plans... Well, actually, I need things to be planned.  I don’t like spontaneity, which is a cause for great contention in my marriage, as Karl doesn't like anything BUT spontaneity--he thinks planning too much takes the fun out of life.  For me, though, not having a plan makes me anxious to the point of psychosis (or nearly so, anyway).  I get very stressed out when things are sprung on me, even if they should be easy and enjoyable things.  I like to have a plan at least a day in advance, which I know most people don’t understand, but it’s something I need.  If you would like to hang out with me, the best thing to do is to say “hey, would you like to hang out tomorrow (or give me a day, like “Wednesday”) evening and do _______?”  This helps me plan and prepare mentally, and I feel a lot better and am a lot less likely to freak out and just not respond to you.
  4. I hate talking on the phone.  Calling people causes me great amounts of anxiety and I may not answer your phone calls.  I really prefer texting, I have unlimited texting, so feel free to text me, email me, or leave me a voicemail if you really need me.
  5.  I don’t keep my phone with me at all times.  I don’t have a smart phone, I just do silly things like texting and calling on my phone, so I usually leave it somewhere (while I'm chasing an extremely active baby all over the house) unless I need to do one of those two things. I really am sorry if I don’t get back to you right away.
  6. I tend to forget to text people back.  I’m not ignoring you, I’m just busy, at work, my baby is trying to help me text, or I fell asleep and forgot!  Please feel free to bug me again. I am superly sorry if this offends anyone.
  7. I am an introvert.  While you may think this means I’m shy (which I am…), what it really (also) means is that being around a lot of people is draining for me.  I like hanging out with a couple of close friends at a time.  I don’t like crowds of people (and by this I honestly mean like 3+), and I don’t like being around people for long periods of time (like more than a couple of hours).  I need time to recharge after seeing people.  I need alone time just for myself.  I’m finding that I really even need alone time from Evie too, which is a hard thing to do.
  8. I get embarrassed easily and I stay embarrassed for a long time.  I don't like situations that can be potentially embarrassing, and I don't like other people to be embarrassed.  I'm actually overly empathetic, which sounds like it should be a good thing, but I end up doing things like feeling really embarrassed or guilty FOR other people... It's kind of sad.
  9. I like to listen, but I have a really hard time sharing.  I am very happy to listen to problems, I don’t get weirded out by odd questions, problems, or stories--I am a health person (which covers everything from child development/heath, to sexual relationships/heath, to psychology, to weird diseases, to behavior change), so I’m not too surprised by most things, and I generally won’t judge you ;)  I am, however,  a little reluctant to share.  Part of that is just not knowing how to express myself the way I want to (see #1), part of it is a trust thing, and part of it is that I don’t have much to talk about aside from my craziness and my adorable baby… and I figure people get tired of those topics :)
  10. I have a lot of health problems (I promise, I'm not a hypochondriac), and I have a hard time doing things that take a lot of activity or last a long time (I know, I feel like an old lady most days).  I also don’t have a lot of energy because of some of my health problems, which is another reason people think I hate them.  When I don't have energy I will often zone out and stare off into space, or have a blank to unhappy look on my face, which makes it seem like I'm disinterested, grumpy, sad, etc., when in actuality, I just don't have the energy to do anything with my face or to be involved very actively in the conversation.
Like I said, I know I have issues.  I'm trying to work on most of them, but I've got to admit, I'm not making a lot of progress very quickly, and some of those things are just never going to change about me.  I want to have friends and a social life (even if it really doesn't seem like, after reading all that), so if you still think you can handle me knowing how crazy I am, I would love to be friends with you :)

Friday, June 22, 2012

My Father's Day Post (a little late...)

Evie loves her daddy.  She always has.


This morning she woke up early and I wasn't ready to get out of bed, so I just sat her between us and let her play while I laid there.  Evie (who has suddenly decided that if she can't crawl or walk she's going to roll, climb, and dive enough to make up for it) was only content with sitting still for about five seconds.  She kept climbing all over Karl saying "dad dad dad dad dad daddaddad".  He was sleeping, and I kept trying to get her to play with me, but she wanted to play with DAD!!  It was the sweetest thing ever.  I know she's not really old enough for "dadadadadad" to mean much, but it was still INCREDIBLY cute.  It kinda reminded me of THIS morning, oh so long ago! 



The other evening I was at my wits end trying to get Evie to take a nap (which has been a huge pain lately), and I finally just gave up and handed her to Karl.  He proceeded to walk around the dark bedroom bouncing my naughty little girl.  This is the conversation they had:

Evie: bababababgugugumemememe

Karl: Yeah, you're so right!  Sleeping is for noobs!!!

Evie: Uhbuhuhbuhbabababa

Karl: Seriously!  Let's never sleep ever again, sleeping is so stupid.  We're not tired.

Evie: ungee ungeedadadadadada

Karl: I know, we should make a club, we're not going to sleep!  And we're DEFINITELY not going to fall asleep in the next five minutes!!!

Evie: Dadad bebebebebe gaga.....*silence*


Sometimes it annoys me that daddy gets to be the best friend and mommy has to do the mean stuff... but at the same time they are just so darned cute together!!  I love them.  I love what an incredibly loving, sweet, and gentle daddy Karl is.  I couldn't have chosen a better father for my children, I am so grateful for him!!  I love those two so much!!

Friday, June 8, 2012

My SIX MONTH old!!!!

Yup, you heard me right, I have a six month old!!!! Can you believe it??  'Cause I can't!!


Here she is six months ago, all 6 lbs 3 oz, 19 inches of her :)  She was such a pretty, chill baby!  All the nurses kept telling us how incredibly beautiful she was, and how good she was in the nursery!  She barely cried, we actually had to force her to eat on a schedule because she wouldn't cry about anything until it was an absolute emergency, lol!  Of course we have since had our share of bad days (and weeks), but she actually was a very happy baby.  She was so itty bitty! I kind of miss Newborn Evie, 

but....








I LOVE Six Month Old Evie :)  How could you not love this face??  She's such a character!!

Evie is now 16 lbs 3 oz, and 25 inches long.  She loves to babble and jabber and squeal (she is not hesitant to share her emotions)!  She makes so many different noises now, she actually sounds like she's talking... Maybe not in English, but still.  

She's been sitting by herself for about a month now, and has moved on to climbing. She's trying so hard to stand up and walk that she's driving mommy and daddy absolutely nuts!  She will use anything to try to pull herself into a standing position, even though she's not really big enough to stand, even when holding on.  She absolutely hates being on her tummy and has just recently started to even consider the idea of crawling.  She wants to be a big girl and walk like mom and dad, crawling is for babies, lol!










She has also just recently started eating solid food, which she has been DYING to do since she was about 4 months old!  So far we've let her have rice cereal and sweet potatoes (ok, and maybe some pizza crust)







The last six months have been a crazy ride!!  Breastfeeding was an incredible challenge, we've had tummy issues and sleep problems galore!  But even though it has been the most challanging, difficult, and occasionally frustrating and annoying undertaking of my life, I can honestly say that I love it.  I have never been happier than I have since Evie came into my life.  I love her so much, and somehow--even though he's now sharing the attention--I love Karl even more than I ever thought imaginable.  Motherhood is an amazing experience that I would not trade for anything in the world.  
I love my baby girl!
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